And the sea is beautiful and romantic and two women appear
and tell themselves, walk and at some point you realize: one of them even
attracts you and you want to kiss her, and she refuses. But the next day she no
longer forbid. And then, you ask her more and she refuses and ... and vacation
ends. And I cried, yes, I even cried after her.
She is the youngest (31 years), most beautiful and smart,
divorced, no children. Do you want, but how not to do comparison.
But the tale does not want it to end and there is still a
meeting. Merely to show that it is not just a holiday story. But meanwhile
achieved wife suffers and requires a decision. And with children between us is
easy to take a decision. Public repudiation on Facebook, all of your problems
and acquaintances are not you only have to feed yourself with the thought that
you are neither the first nor the last in this world with such problems. And
the tale goes undecided, a truce for a limited period at the end of 2013.
With new forces begin rebuilding marriage trying to give as
much. But forget about the issue during his wife had probably never know the
real strength and decades in the same boredom and routine. Interestingly bed
are ok; tell friends and realize that, in fact, what we boast in this chapter.
But months pass and loneliness overwhelms me again. And
coming mid-summer 2014 and send a message. And she responds naughty. I did not
forget. And we meet and tell, I invite her warm smile, her eyes aimed throws
sparks to ignite a fire that's actually a real blaze and finally she invited me
to her. And I feared rejection, because the spirit protector of me tells me I
would not want to suffer again for me. On the road the 200 kms to the house
(which painfully separate us every time) I realize that they are among the few
losers in the world who would refuse the opportunity to fully enjoy the moments
spent with someone who yearned after that.
Messages continue obscene become dirty and exciting at the
same time and she asks me directly. I'm reluctant to give an answer, but can
not refuse to infinity, no train waiting so many times and would even offensive
to her. Accept and meet. Yes, it is incredible, unreal, unimaginable for both.
I am the god tan, she is the princess white, white, corporate workaholic
untouched in mid-summer sun. The passion with which it gives me to compare it
with an explosion that engulfs all the air around her.
Already after the third meeting feel that there need to
provide a ring ... hhmm so fast, ring? about burn stages. Pass the test and buy
the ring and realize that though she only wants an affair with me. The
character somewhat constant, but still only an adventure.
After several meetings and wife realize that there was a
problem. It was easy and as long as I did before love for hours, half the
night, and was now half an hour waiting to be over before they even begin.
Strangely, after a while found that she accept this infidelity. Why? Perhaps I
was throwing a husband. I promise it's just a summer rain and I will pass.
And I sleep with his wife and once even the same day. In
love? Out of fear she did not find someone? From compassion? Do not know, do
not know. I feel like a bull but as a monster, a husband failed.
But incendiary nights that bring weight loss, physical harm
me and her, break me any and I want to do anything just to be with her. Did
loves me, is obsessed with sex or just never had someone recently? I'm not
experienced enough to answer. I came along we thought long lost. And go on
weekends together. And children ask me (worship me) why I leave one at the
weekend; even without them? Become stressed wife bombards me with sms that I
realize that much to me, and probably you as I care about her and the family.
And she read me, is smart and intuits.
And after our weekend movies that tells me citybreak site
that was between us over and get back to my house. Refusal vigorously and meet
again. Sexual attraction is instant, but we stop ... just tell. I asked to make
a decision. Then tells me she wants a family, not just to live the moment.
Wife asks me to resume our marriage a second chance. Not
saying before, but the second chance was in the fall of 2013 when I quit once
to it.
I propose that for two or three months to try to forget it
and to devote myself to family and if you do not resist, that is, to take the
most difficult decision of my life after 18 years of relationship.
Tell a friend passing and he admits that has never known
such nights. Sorry, can I destroy and silence his marriage.
I can not sleep and can not live without it and not restrain
myself to write. After two weeks I say that is happy. And it breaks me heart
pain. Then write that I started a new relationship. Tremor at work, home and me
quieter night run many, many miles from 10 to 11 constantly. I wanted to cry,
that's why I chose the night, I do not see anyone. But I gave a tear. And
neither was I tired, although I think a tear to my muscles. At least if it was
a race track, I get something out of it.
Analysis and thinking that she did not mind, so probably
trying to make family dreams on "fast forward". Or trying to hurt me
to hasten my decision. But both solutions are to the detriment of her times is
too libertine times is too selfish and dangerous blackmailer. Making it makes
me start to sleep more than 4 hours a night, is a breakthrough.
They are often a delayed. And I'm glad I did not rush. How
the hell did divorce after 2-3 months with her? I wanted to make sure I did not
agitate for a fire of straw. However, it was normal to divorce before having a
new relationship, do not forget that. I think I would have expected it a year.
There are an adventurer, are just a 38-year romantic.
Wife is close to me still; and she is smart. If I would be
asked to break up, I would have flown out the door, before at least to finish
her sentence.
I always liked smart women.
She did not reply to my messages. But are becoming quieter.
Now I'm sure he loves me not, or do not make me suffer. And I made her
suffer, but I was married, I could not escape so easily. Anyway not step on it,
the attraction between us is too strong to still remain rational. You must
think only head up. And I thought I would have to buy cot, pram, bottle, car
seat, etc. and she me "forget" after 2-3 weeks?
I will not retaliate but never. I live with feeling slightly
evil, that life will avenge her, when you meet another / others who will not
pass all the tests that I've passed: romance, gifts and fools in two.
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