MAGIC ROMANCE AND DREAMS: SOME THOUGHTS OF A BABY

Dear Mom,

I am completely confused.

I used to fall asleep in your arms soft, warm, loving. Every night I'm nest there, stuck on you, you hear the heartbeat, I felt the perfume, you looked beautiful face, I would let your hair soft and comforted by without me realize asleep safe in your embrace full of love listening to your voice warm and soothing predict how beautiful I will be tomorrow. When I woke up with my little stomach growling with hunger, or because I was cold or hot, or because I needed a little attention, even when a nightmarish dreams disturb me, you were always there, arms ready to go back to wear the most beautiful dreams.

But a week here, everything changed. Every evening the same thing happened last week: me sitting in the crib, you've forehead tenderly caressed, kissed me good night, you turned off the light and left the room. At first I was confused, wondering where you left hoping it will not take long and you feel you near me again. After a few minutes in a dark and watching the lights and shadows on the walls which were carried out in silence disturbed only by a mosquito that I heard somewhere in the distance, began to be afraid, so I cried. And I cried ... And I still cry, Mommy, but you did not come. I was so sad, Mommy ... I was in tears, I started to cry, I hid my head under the blanket soft, and for the first time in my short life, I felt abandoned. I need you so ... I never ever felt so alone. Where have you gone?

After a few minutes, in the end, you're back. Oh, what happiness came over me when I saw you again, if I

had a stone heart. I had thought you left me. I got up and stretched out her hands unto thee, hoping to feel you again neck skin, embrace that I had prepared. But you took me in his arms. Nor have you looked into my eyes. You sat back in the crib with your arms soft and warm, you said: "Sssttt, it's bedtime, goodnight!" And you left.

This happened again and again, and again. I still cry and, after a time, each time longer, you came to me, but I do not ever picked. Once you've been crying for you, at some point, I had to stop. The neck hurt very much, my head was roaring, growling tummy me hungry. But heart hurt most. Just do not understand why you left me. For a moment I thought that this is because I did something wrong, something that should be very bad if I got so painful punishment. Finally, in tears and thinking of all my actions that day, I fell asleep.

After a few nights that seemed like they took forever, had to give up, because you had not come when you cry, and when, finally, you came, did not even look at me, if you do not even care that sighing and shaking all over. The pain was too great to more continuous.

I do not understand, Mom. During the day, you fall and hit me, take me in his arms and kissed me quickly to pass me. If I'm hungry, give me to eat. If I go to you to cute, I guess thoughts and take me in your arms, I fly up and down with kisses and tell me how much you love me. If I need you, just answer me.

But the evening when it is dark and quiet wakefulness and light casts strange shadows on the wall, you disappear. I know you're tired, Mommy, but I love you so much ... I just wanna be with you all.

Now, at night, do not cry, do not cry, but I still miss you ...